Suddenly,

I have this overwhelming sense that I no longer matter to anyone. ANYONE. 

Friends make promises to keep in contact, and that they'll never forget me. But how am I supposed to believe that, words are just words. 

Anyone can say anything they want.

People grow up, and forget about people. Especially me, who is here not making any progress at all. Stationary. Not moving forward. 

Everyone else is moving on with their lives, making progress, growing up. What am I doing? Staying home, eating, getting fatter (don't try to correct me, I know that word was wrong) trying to work hard to save money to move towards my goals, but I am tired of waiting, working hard. Just to be let down again, and again.

people talk. and it's not always right, and they aren't always nice. So much wrong in this world could be avoided if we all just talked nicely, acted friendly, actually cared about people. 

I am so sick of people giving me "the look" when they see me walking around. Like "he needs to diet" or "why is he out in public." you don't think I notice you, but I do. I can see you out of the corner of my eye. And let me just tell you, I don't appreciate it. So what, I'm not the, 6 pack, tanned, tall, handsome person that the world expects me to be, but you know what. I am a funny, down to earth guy that people love to be around. Judge me before you know me, and the only thing you're missing is a great opportunity.

No matter what you think, everything ends up getting around. Weather you want it to or not. I hate how some people are so cowardly that they can't even be straight with some people. How do you expect anything to change, if you can't tell someone the truth. Lies get no one anywhere. Period. 

I'm not posting this for the pity of everyone around me, these are my honest feelings, and thoughts that flood my mind. 

Sincerely,

Tyler